I try to not let it bother me… But rejection hurts like a fucking bitch. I don’t even mean from guys… I mean like being denied from a job or a student group on campus… Just everything. It all adds up. What the hell am I good for? I’m good enough to serve fucking taco bell to the campus, but I’m not good enough to find a place for myself on campus? Fuck that shit, seriously. I try to focus on my studies and I try to work enough to pay rent, but that’s it - I want something more. I want to be allowed to want something more for myself.
boys are sooooo stupid.
last night i pushed my “friend” into a wall and slapped him across the face.
first off, you’d been annoying the fuck out of me alllllllllllllllllll day.
then i come to your party and by that point i was gone. and you wanna bring up my past?
fuck you. fuuuuuuuuuuuck youuuuuuuuuu.
i’m currently freaking on what i need to pack/what i don’t need to pack.
but then i kinda wanna just sleep and deal with the majority of it all tomorrow morning…
gah, which reminds me i need to be up at 7:30… shoot me… shoot me now…